"try to give the best, do the best. although at times felt low, felt down. but in the end it all pays off.."
here i am, awake in the middle of the night. in the last day of my shift cycle. i can't say i'm free, there are a few task waiting to be finished. somehow i felt like there's an urge to write. at first i feel like wanna put the text above in twitter, but doesn't feel like fit. to put in this blog, it'll be too short for an entry. so here's the elaboration of it.
at times i felt like giving up. stress at work, facing gutter brained & gutter mouthed people who's making fun of my long distance relationship with my wife. i understand they meant it as a joke, even a vulgar one. but sometimes i just got fed up with it, something like "that's enough bugger". maybe i should shove that straight in their face so they'll understand how frustrated i get at times. once in a while is ok, but a few times in a row = asking for trouble.
the pays off part is when the prince meets the princess after the long hard journey that he's been through. a fantasy comes true maybe it is. but i'm going through it every forthnight. brace yourself son, be brave.. *heads up*
hahah, after checking the last entry did i realise that i haven't been writing for a very-very long time. well, i don't have much to write/chatter about. since i've got someone to share my thoughts with. but still, i need to write here once in a while, for something that i need to share with the others.. well, if there's any that still visits this dusty site. huhuhuh
anyways, i have to remove the ancient egyptian elements in this blog after learning what they actually means. i know i've been using it before, at times to represent myself, to represent my love for my dearest. but heck, since we're married now a phone call or sms better way channel my feelings. isn't that right dear? hik-hik
regarding the ancient egyptian thingy, there's a whole lot more to explain. but it's all started when i began watching the arrival series, which i got from my colleague. a real eye opener i must say, for who really runs thing around the world today. if you haven't know yet, you can see it here. check it out, it's good for your knowledge & share it with others.
hmm.. not much to scribble about these days. just started working today after spending last 5 days at my wife's home. whoaaa, sometimes i can't believe it myself that i'm already married. especially when introducing milady to other people. luckily i said it right "meet my wife" instead of "meet my fiancee". kalo tak naya je malu. tih-tih-tih :p
oh yeah, when i was away i left my little old "server" running at home. the ol'chap was running fine but i have problem connecting remotely using vnc. normally from work i have to use logmein because of firewall in the office. but at my wife's home there's no firewall so i can use vnc with no problem, theoretically. but what happen when i try to connect, i keep receiving "connection terminated unexpectedly" or something like that. to make things worse, logmein sometimes doesn't work well. after i've logged in i can only a small part of the remote screen, while the rest is black. arrgghhhh X(
yesterday i couldn't do much troubleshooting since it's kinda late (though i slept at near midnight, makes me sleepy at work today. huhuhu). tonight i've managed to fix the problem. check the registry and cleared all values related to vnc. after reinstalled vnc, i'm able to connect from my desktop again. hohohoh ^_^
so far so good, while the lil' server is running. i've downloaded the latest season of stargate atlantis, but i wonder when i'll be able to watch it. maybe i have to get psp & dump it there. can watch & play games while travelling on bus. hmm, just see how things goes.. :/
talk about gaming consoles, there a band that uses old gaming console as musical instruments. well since those devices are capable of producing sound and there's software available, a bunch of guys formed a band and played using the devices as musical instruments. well it sounds really electronic, compared to dance/techno/trance music. cool stuff huh?
wow, it's been a long time. i've wanted to write but the thoughts just doesn't flow through my fingers and it just lingers in my mind and vanishes later on. i've been through a lot lately. life changing situation, at times pushing me almost to the limit. my patience, my strength, my wisdom, almost every aspect. alhamdulillah, i've managed to get through some of it. for those that i've failed, i'm sorry for the damages done. i admit it's my own fault, failure to overcome my weakness.
november last year was my wedding, the biggest change in my life. all this while i've been feeling like a useless jerk, and god gave me the biggest gift of all. a sweet, lovely girl to accompany me in this journey of life. to guide me through this obstacles of life. she changed me, fixed me, rebuild my confidence to face the world and future challenges in life. the fallen kingdom has rise again.
thank you to colleagues, friends, relatives, everybody that made it happen. those who worked hard during the wedding, those who came, those who wish, those who prayed, those who gave gifts & contribution. you name it, eveerything. thank you very much for being a part of it, i really appreciate all the efforts that has been put. my apologies if there's any flaw/mistakes/any wrong doings during the reception on both sides.
i hope it's still not too late to wish happy new year for all the visitor of this site. good luck to us all, to face upcoming challenge in life. more experience to gain, to learn, to endure. all the best, ganbatte ne!!
